i was sittin, waitin, wishin

you believed in superstition, then maybe you'd see the signs
today was prime evidence of my masochistic tendencies.
how the freak did i get absolutely nothing done from 11 until 8.
theres too much going on in my head.
i want to sleep.
im so close to having an amazing life,
why do i effing screw it up for myself
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ugh. this is my first year not doing something for lent.
i feel so guilty,
and then i feel even guiltier that i havent done anything to change that.
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its hard
balancing life.
i used to be depressed and struggling in school.
now i am happy and freaking drowning in school.
not good.
ive decided love will be much easier in the summer.

god. summer.
can you freaking hurry yo butt up.
and then last forever?
kthanksbai.